Used To

Back and forth, back and forth. I am rarely constant for more than a few days at a time (which you can tell from the bipolar-ishness of my blog posts. hehe). I fluctuate each day - there are those days where I think I have everything figured out (which I must be delusional on those days, right?!), and there are those where....well, it feels like I can't figure anything out for the life of me. In the midst of the fluctuations, though, I do feel that I am in a good place in my life. I have done an incredible amount of soul-searching in the last 6 months or so, more than I imagined possible. I have discovered things about myself that will help me be a better person throughout the rest of my days. Clearly I'm not perfect, but I'm getting there. :) But seriously....My goal in life is to never stop with the soul-searching and bettering of myself. Not only can I be a better contribution to the world by doing that, but I will be more at peace deep in my being.

So I heard this song today, and it spoke to me. It spoke to me a lot. I have some thinking to do.

Do with it what you will....

"Used To" by Daughtry

You used to talk to me like
I was the only one around.
You used to lean on me like
The only other choice was falling down.
You used to walk with me like
We had nowhere we needed to go,
Nice and slow, to no place in particular.

We used to have this figured out;
We used to breathe without a doubt.
When nights were clear, you were the first star that I'd see.
We used to have this under control.
We never thought.
We used to know.
At least there's you, and at least there's me.
Can we get this back?
Can we get this back to how it used to be?

I used to reach for you when
I got lost along the way.
I used to listen.
You always had just the right thing to say.
I used to follow you.
Never really cared where we would go,
Fast or slow, to anywhere at all.

We used to have this figured out;
We used to breathe without a doubt.
When nights were clear, you were the first star that I'd see.
We used to have this under control.
We never thought.
We used to know.
At least there's you, and at least there's me.
Can we get this back?
Can we get this back to how it used to be?

I look around me,
And I want you to be there
'Cause I miss the things that we shared.
Look around you.
It's empty, and you're sad
'Cause you miss the love that we had.

You used to talk to me like
I was the only one around,
The only one around.

We used to have this figured out;
We used to breathe without a doubt.
When nights were clear, you were the first star that I'd see.
We used to have this under control.
We never thought.
We used to know.
At least there's you, and at least there's me.
Can we get this back?
Can we get this back to how it used to be? Yeah.
To how it used to be.
To how it used to be, yeah.
To how it used to be.
To how it used to be.